It was one of those mornings. After a night of broken sleep I got up feeling tired and grumpy. I made my usual early morning phone call to my Mum whilst still half asleep and immediately the adrenalin kicked in when she told me she was not doing too well. A quick splash with a warm water, a tooth brush and a squirt of moisturiser and I was in the car on my way, banana in hand....... going no where fast...... into a traffic jam.... damn you M25!
As I sat in the queue of traffic I was then 'delighted' to hear the petrol warning noise and my wonderful german car asking me if I wanted to know where the nearest petrol station was. As I was at the end of my road and know the area very well, I found myself telling the car, out loud, that it was too early in the day for sarcasm.
After about 30 mins or queing, I reached the petrol station. I must admit to feeling rather stressed as I stood filling the tank. I was surrounded by cars,vans, diesel and petrols fumes, and lots of noise, full of worry, a little panic and a growing feeling of being overwhelmed by it all. But, as I stood there my eyes were filled by the beautiful winter sunshine which was pushing its way up through the trees, over the aquadrome, glimmering over the fence and even at this time of year lightly warming my face with its rays. In an instant I was transported into many memories of sunshine, holidays, happiness and love. I took just a few extra moments to breathe, just one breath at a time taking in calmness, energy and beauty and exhaling the f eelings of panic, anxiety and stress. It was magic, what a feeling.
By the time I got to Mum's house I was ready, calm and focussed. A trip to Wycombe A&E, some tests which. thankfully, went really well and we are now at home.
That moment of connection with the sunrise and my breath, really helped me focus and clarify my thoughts and consequently I was in the best state of mind to deal with what was happening. This is a great time of year to connect to good memories and goods things, maybe to use them in stressful moments or just to help you feel a little more connected and in control with the lunacy of the Christmas arrangments on everyones mind. Go on, give it try, find a feelgood moment and use that positive feeling.